.....so
at this point you may be asking yourself how my personal circumstances have
changed. Well once again I am in what I hope ends up being a long lasting
relationship, the longer the better ideally. Although being single during
lockdown was painful on many levels it did give me the opportunity to step back
and reflect on what direction I would like my life to go in once things got
back to any kind of normality.
I knew from past experience
that as a single male a sex life that consisted entirely of swinging wasn't a
good fit for me. I remember sometimes returning home from an adventure with a
couple and although the experience would have been a lot of fun I'd sometimes
be aching for a good cuddle and particularly with couples not that well
known to me that need could very easily be misunderstood. Perhaps not so much
in an adventure with a single lady but even then there could be room for
misinterpretation.
However, the prize for the most
empty feeling without doubt would relate to nights out at a swinging club in
which I felt no connection with anyone. I'd be driving home in the early hours
of the morning thinking to myself "what the fuck are you doing
Danny?" boy did it feel shit.
Yet on the flip side I also
know that when I've tried to live a more conventional life I would end up
feeling like a part of me was suppressed and unfulfilled. Therein lies the dilemma
how was I to feed and nurture both extremes. At one end is the ache for genuine
companionship, affection hell even the "L" word and at the other end
encoded within my DNA is my dark wickedly mischievous side and its need for an
outlet to express itself.
So there was me with a new
sense of purpose on two very distinct missions. On the one hand a desire for
companionship and on the other that need I have to be with another man's woman.
If you have read any of my previous blogs you will know that the woman is
ideally someone’s wife and that I have a strong preference for wives who enjoy
being fucked by me in the presence of their husband at lease occasionally if
not all the time (even the phrase "my wife" can make my
cock twitch 😈).
I updated both my dating and
swinging profiles with a sense of purpose and excitement wondering which
mission would bear fruit first.
Whatever couple I would eventually
find certain requirement would have to be met. Priority number one they must
must MUST live less than and hours drive from me. For me one of the most
frustrating aspects of covid was the fact that just before lockdown I had met
two amazing cuckold couples but to get to either of them it would have been a two
hour illegal drive. Had either of them lived closer to home I could have
conceivably had a covid safe fuck bubble and all the time in the world to get
to know them 😈.
By the way getting to know a
couple well is one of the aspects of cuckolding that I really enjoy. It's a
slow process and one that I like to savour. This is why I ever so regretfully
swipe left mentally when approached by couples who live too far away from me
even if they would otherwise be an ideal match.
For my companionship mission
there are also must have qualities in any woman that I'd want to be with.
Besides living reasonably local to me she would also need to be fully accepting
of the more mischievous side of my sexuality. So in order to minimise awkward
conversations my dating profile made it clear that I was non-monogamous. I also
made a point of only swiping right if a woman's profile said the same. I'm hard
wired with a sense of fair play so the more adamant a woman was about her non-monogamous
mindset the more comfortable I'd feel swiping right.
That's how Katherine came into
my life. She told me that one of the things that made me stand out was the fact
that my profile stated that I'm looking for a woman that wants me NOT a woman that
needs me. She lives a busy life and our first date was via Zoom. Although not
face to face the chemistry was instant. She pointed out that she too was on a
journey and that she had concluded that polyamory was the right path for her.
It was very clear that although she was looking for something meaningful she
had no intention making her pussy exclusive to me. She also didn't flinch when
I spoke about my need to meet couples and that I am bicurious.........FUCK!!!!!
I had to pinch myself......had I struck gold?.........
