A cock a gimp and a care bear walked into a bar......there's a joke in there somewhere I just know there is 😂.
Anyway this is going to be one of my slightly unusual
somewhat reflective curveball postings...
Just over a week ago I was in a cafe sat opposite
to a married woman and flirting with the intention meeting her at a hotel on
our second encounter. It was a hot day and she was wearing a summer dress and
oh boy do I love admiring women wearing summer dresses. I made little to no
effort to hide the fact that my gaze sometimes lingered on her chest and oh so yummy looking thighs. However in spite of my addiction for married women I had no
intention of fucking her. Now you'd be forgiven for being confused at this point
but here's the thing.
When covid hit and we were all in lockdown I was not long out
of a serious relationship, and I had just managed to make a really good
connection with not one but two amazing cuckold couples. However, in a cruel
twist of fate neither of them was local to me and long story short it led to
what at first was an agonising 18 month period of enforced celibacy.
Once
I had got to the point of "accepting my fate" I actually got quite
used to the isolation. I was also very much mindful and aware of the fact that
soo many people and families suffered terribly at this time. I myself focused
on developing other areas of my life and quite enjoyed the isolation. The pause
from the rat race was in many ways good for me and luckily for me feeling of
loneliness were quite rare. However, whenever it did occur it was like
a punch to the gut and the desire that dominated all others was the desire for
cuddles. It even overpowered my lust for other men's wives and boy did
that take me by surprise.
Lockdown got me
thinking about the second world war and although I didn't do any deep research into
the topic it got me wondering if that period of time was the birth place of the
gas mask fetish. Did 2020 give birth to a cuddles fetish? I wonder what history will say.
I
have always been a cuddles kinda guy but in a swinging context I have
always been a little bit hesitant to cuddle as much as I would like for
fear of my intentions being misread as romantic in the conventional sense of
the word. I suppose its a bit like kissing someone's wife/girlfriend a bit
too long it just looks weird and it can create unnecessary discomfort and
tension. So I'd only ever kiss beyond the point of acceptable etiquette if
the partner is a cuckold oh and the kiss would last even longer if I'm making him
watch while sucking my cock mmmmmmmmmm. Got a bit carried away
there.........now where was I?
Ah
yes back to the topic at hand. During lockdown I did get into the odd
conversation with women and like me some of them did indeed have the same ache
to meet just for cuddles. So although it was never acted upon it did get me
thinking. Just as having a Fuck Buddy or Friends With Benefits is seen as a
complication free way to connect sexually. Couldn't a Cuddle Buddy serve a
similar...ish role?
Its
hilarious but I think I feel more self conscious coming out of the
closet as a cuddles craver than I did as a Bull that also has deep
cravings to suck cock. But it is was it is, covid unlocked a need in me
that is greater than I realised and I feel a responsibility to be true and
honest with myself just as much as I did when it dawned on me that I wasn't
heterosexual.
Anyway
lets transport ourselves back to my coffee with the married woman. At first things went really well we'd spent the best
part of two hours in Costa chatting and enjoying each others company. However
when dropping her home in the privacy of my car she admitted that her real
agenda was to find men she felt comfortable enough to fuck as well as
snuggle with for hours.
Something switched in my brain. When I know a woman is "naughty" I'm like a moth to a flame. I instantly got horny and my cock was now pressing slightly painfully against my jeans. What should have been a friendly
good bye kiss on the cheek ended up as a very passionate kiss I was soooooo
ready to fuck at that point...........damn it!!
This may sound weird and you may be thinking "what the
fuck are you crazy?" but in my quest for a genuine cuddle buddy I don't
want penetrative sex to be on the agenda. I wrestled for a few days but then
ultimately decided that it would be best not to take things further with the
lady. Yes in the heat of the moment I'd probably go with the flow but on the flip side I don't want a cuddle
buddy who is secretly feeling flustered and frustrated if a fuck isn't the
final outcome. A sensual tease for some is something to be savored but for
others it feels like vindictive torture. That's reason number one for deciding not to meet
her again. Reason number two, I class myself as Ethically Non-Monogamous so
although over the years I have fucked (polite cough) my fair share of other
men's wives and girlfriends with relish it has never knowingly been without their
consent, blessing or encouragement.
Although I wouldn't throw a tantrum if a cuddle buddy
transitioned into a FWB. I'm still very specific in my desire for a platonic...ish cuddle buddy to bond with on a deep level too. I see it as one of
several interesting ways to connect with a woman and I always love an
adventure.
My quest continues.
