The Sub Version of Me....out there somewhere in the multiverse

There's a sub version of me. I know this to be true because that's how my journey into kink first started. I had a deep deep desire to to worship and serve a sexually liberated woman...fantasized constantly about what it would feel like to be teased within an inch of my life and pegged without mercy. So one memorable night at a swingers social hosted by a couple I found a lady willing to be my guide.

She self identified as a nympho with an insatiable appetite. I loved the idea of being teased with maximum cruelty and denied the kind of access to her that she gave so freely to others that she deemed worthy. She was rather intrigued by the idea of having one of her conquests to use at her beck and call. She didn't think I had a dominant bone in my body it looked like a perfect match. So began our three year relationship.

It started off well enough she was like a wild creature that can't be tamed and that wildness was part of her beauty. But then there was an unexpected twist. Within her was an inner sub screaming to be let out......and much to the surprise of both of us somewhere deep in my subconscious was a Dom. He was a crafty little fellow because up until that point I had no idea of his existence...but once he awoke there was no putting him back into Pandora's box.

The next three years were.....the depravity ooooooohh boy.

Long long ago that was. By the way this is when the Bull within me was born. I'd met couples before but prior to having a sub the cerebral nature of cuckolding went right over my head. I just didn't get it.

BUT that sub is still there dormant but not hiding. Now and then reminding me that he's still there waiting patiently for the right opportunity to express himself.

Out there in the multiverse I wonder what the sub version of me is up to, whatever it is I've no doubt he's having his fair share of fun.

Filthy perv lolol.

Aren't you a little short to be a Bull? Part 3 of 3

As hinted at one of the couples at the party I organised had asked if it would be ok to stay the night. It was a suggestion that I was more than happy with because during the party itself I was in host mode and not the least bit horny. I just wanted to be sure that everyone invited had a good time. 

I had invited a black Domme friend to help host, four other bi leaning black Bulls and four couples. I already knew all of the four couples who accepted my party invitation and of the four I already knew three of the women.....biblically ;-). Although I didn't know the Bulls as well as the couples I had been in conversation with them for quite a while and was confident that they were the kind of black men who would represent themselves favourably. 

Hosting a successful party and ensuring that everyone had a good time was my priority that night and because I knew two of the couples particularly well I knew that even if I didn't get to fuck that night I would soon after.

I need not have worried.

I kicked everyone out at around 3am so now it was just me and the bi couple. Oh by the way two of the couples had bi males and the other two were cuckold males. That's why I had carefully vetted the invited Bulls to ensure that they were at least bi curious.

Anyway we settled into one of the beds together chatted about how sussesful the party had been and then I started to kiss Rose. I always love kissing her she's so good with her mouth so I'm quite addicted. Her husband Jim loves stroking my cock. So he wet his hand and a bit and got to work caressing my shaft and gently wanking me off mmmmmmm.

Because of the trust and openness between us whenever we've met we've know when I need to use a condom and when not to. This was to be one of those rare times when no condom was required. Jim loves teasing Rose's pussy with my cock and I quite like it too ;-) I get so worked up I start leaking precum. You don't see the droplets for long though because I'm now slowly dipping my helmet in her oh so wet sounding pussy.

By this point we're all making pleasurable moaning noises. I'm loving the fact that both of them are closely observing my cock and we are all relishing the asthetics of our contrasting skin colour. It feels so good being inside Rose while Jim gently caresses my balls. After a while the teasing is too much for Jim so he puts his hand on my arse and gently pushes me all the way into his wife mmmmmmm.

He then went to the other end of the bed and sliped his cock im his wife's mouth. As mentioned before Jim's cock is both long and thick and has the effect of intimidating some of the black guys that they have met. Not me though. I thought his cock looked amazing in his wife's mouth. So much so that I felt compelled to suck it. I wrestled with the idea for a few minites. But in the end I thought "fuck why not"

So now not only was I fucking Rose bareback but I was also kissing her and sucking and licking her husbands cock with her too. Man what a sweet mind fuck that was for me mmmmm.

Now because Of Jim's size Rose always has to be brace her self and feel ready before she lets him inside her. So when they go to swinging events she doesn't let him fuck her until she feels that she has had her share of fun. That point came and Rose asked me to cum inside her. By this point I no longer had Jim's cock in my mouth. He was somewhere to the side of us and it was just Rose and me passionately kissing and fucking. Fuck she's good...talking to me with that soft sexy voice until I  erupted inside her. When I pulled out Jim wasted no time and excitedly slipped his cock in his sexy wife. The voyeur in me drank it all in. Both were obviously feeling horny as fuck and Jim was particularly turned on by the fact that my creamy load was sloshing around his cock and providing more than  ample lubrication as he fucked his wife. He finally gasped with pleasure shot his load and eventually flopped to the side of the bed too.

Jim kept going on about how good it felt to fuck Rose with my cum inside her. Fuck I though...I know were safe today so why not make the most of it I thought. Long story short we both took turns having sloppy secounds. Its a while ago now so I don't remember if either of us came in Rose again that night. But her pussy was so full of cum lubrication it wouldn't have made a difference. 

I will never forget that night. Its memorable because of the shear lustful filth between us and from my perspective because it was the night I because a card carrying cock sucker.

So back to the original question in this blog. Does size matter? 

Yes....

and no

Its vaugue I know but also true. Its better to ask yourself that question. Does size matter to you? If the answer is yes yes and YES then you know what to look for. 

But if it is just one of a number of factors that lead to a whole greater than the sum of its parts then you too should know what to look for.

What's my take on it? Well I have a pragmatic, hedonistic swingers mindset. So if I'm free to salivate over tall, short gym fit, curvy, PAWG etc etc etc women why shouldn't women be entitled to the same? Some women want to be stuffed full all of the time. Some want it now and then or as an occasional treat and some run a mile from the porn sized cock. 

If I'm with a woman its because I like her and that most important ingrdient is in place...chemistry. 

In that moment she is all I want, desire or need. So on the flip side I expect the same from her. I don't care if she wants a man with a bigger cock next week as long as when with me she is 100% in the moment. Its me and my cock that matters most to her.

Swinging, cuckolding and the dreaded L word Part 1 of 3

Anyone that knows me well will be shocked to discover that of late I have been spending my time not with someones wife but with a single woman. This was never a part of the plan. Not only for me but for her too.

The original idea from both our perspectives was to merely keep each other company on route to swinging events as we lived so close to each other. That plus the fact we share nerdy interest interests outside of the scene made for fun conversations that always made the time fly past.

Due to my personal circumstances, for the past two years I made a conscious effort to stay away from single women. Why? Partly due to past experiences. Simply put I didn't want to risk the emotional complications that can occur when you get on really well with a fuck buddy or friend with benefits. I hate the idea of hurting people even if unintentional.

Also, from a swinging perspective it was because I didn’t want to get close to anyone who wouldn’t understand my passionate interest in the cuckold lifestyle as a Bull. However this fiercely independent woman that I am now with has fundamentally altered my perspective. As a disciplined Bull I have always prided myself on my ability to master my emotions. MASTER being the key word. I have long felt that suppressing or denying ones emotions is an exercise in self deception and self harm. However I also strongly believe we have a choice in terms of how much we feed and water those same emotions.

As I have said before one of the things that attracted me to cuckolding couples as opposed to normal swinging is the potential for a deeper level of intimacy. However I have always been mindful never to feed and water the emotions involved to a level that would cause harm or hurt anyone involved.

Having said all that I’m not a robot so although not in a rush I was always hopeful of one day finding a couple that was of a mindset similar to mine and secure enough in their relationship to be open to the possibly that the lust and friendship may indeed turn to some form of love at some point and evolve into a poly type relationship.

But, as indicated in my last blog in reality I saw nothing to indicate that a scenario like that was even on the horizon. So imagine my surprise when almost by accident I find myself getting to know a single woman who not just accepts my passion for cuckolding couples but actually gets turned on by it. So much so that given the right circumstances she would jump at the chance to watch or join me when I’m having fun with a cuckold couple. With her being fully Bi, completely filthy and naturally dominant with women by nature the possibilities are endless.

I have no doubt that her fiercely untameable independent nature made me feel free and safe enough to feed and water my feelings for her and let them flourish into the depth of feeling that I have for her now. Likewise my acceptance of her nature and her knowledge that I have no desire to control her have had the same effect on her too.

That said. Since starting this relationship the reactions I have had from couples I already know has been rather interesting. Perhaps even negative and that surprised me at first. I have one or two half thought out theories which I will begin to explore further in part two....